I am aware of my personal purpose. And that (somewhat evolving) purpose has served me well and is embedded in QOL.

Until the age of 35 my ‘story’ and my ‘doing’ where not aligned. And also not based on what was close to me at the time. It was inspired by various fears instead. This was, amongst other events, confirmed by my unsuccessful attempts in securing a job when I needed to (even after 60 job applications).

As a consequence I used to think that the ‘economic value of being myself was zero’. Once these two matched ‘economic value’ at form level followed naturally.

Beyond form however, at level of ‘oneness’ doesn’t seem to allow for or require a personal purpose (or even any purpose?). Living consciously and letting myself be inspired from moment to moment seems sufficient. This ‘communal’ state also doesn’t fluctuate. I only drift in and out of it depending on my level of presence. At that level having an ‘economic value’ also seems irrelevant.

This would imply that the great quest of ‘seeking a meaning to life’ or for a ‘personal purpose’ is an exercise that is only relevant at the ‘ego’ level. Maybe this is too ‘simple’ and an easy ‘way out’ of this existential question but maybe not.