Current hypothesis: free will comes with ‘consciousness’. I believe our intentions to be inherently good at every point in time. And that my behavior outside consciousness is controlled by ego.

It seemed like a good idea at the time. Which doesn’t mean I’m not fully responsible for that behavior and shouldn’t bear the consequences thereof.

I feel a responsibility to become more conscious and serve life. But am I also responsible for my (temporary) unconsciousness? I tend to believe that nobody including myself.. is willingly unconscious.

And hope one day to feel the same compassion towards myself as I start feeling more and more towards others. I struggle along the path… and I feel deeply sorry for any harm this causes to my environment.